Have you ever had a full circle moment? You know, those experiences when something happens in this moment, that explains, puts closure to or gives peace to past moments? I’ve been having a lot of those lately. In fact, these full circle moments have been happening at least weekly for quite some time.
Along with all the ups and downs of 2020, there has been another thread of experience that has been circling back through my life like loops of gold, always there and always weaving the past, present and future together. It’s challenging to coherently express the feelings associated with these experiences, but with each completed loop, there appears to be a more coherent awareness that our lives are all
interwoven.
It’s easy to miss these moments or to write them off as non sensical or confusing, but every now and again the interconnectedness not just within ourselves but with all others becomes so evident that it’s impossible to dismiss the experience.
That happened in a recent session! Here’s how it played out.
I was working with a teenaged young woman who is semi-verbal, diagnosed as autistic and her mother, as well as another non- verbal young man with the same diagnosis and his mother. (I love the multidimensional complexity of these conversations.) They both use boards to spell out their awareness.
Anyway, this young woman is completely conscious of her capacity to support those who are being abused.
She’s like a literal angelic presence in the lives of those who are being mistreated. She consciously connects with them wherever they are and whenever they call out energetically.
In this session, she was seeking support to make her job a little easier, given the vast amount of abuse that is taking place during this year of the “lock down”.
We were in the middle of the session and I was energetically helping to anchor her presence lower in her body. This was so she could more effectively help those who reach out to her to have a voice in the moment that they need to say “no” or to otherwise be empowered to come to their own defense.
As I was watching the energy reconfigure in her root, sacral and solar plexus area, I was reminded of a time early in my own life where I was in a similar situation. There was a moment when I was on the floor under the force of a strong male voice yelling me into submission. I was about 16 at the time. For some reason in that particular moment something took over my body and I stood up in front of this six foot authority figure and clearly pointed my
figure at him and said “You have no idea who you are talking to.” I ran upstairs and collapsed on my bed. The energy that allowed me to take that stand was all spent in that powerful moment of clarity and then as quickly as it had come, it was gone.
As a way of expressing to my client what I saw she was doing in her support of abused children, I began to tell her this story. I told her that by reconfiguring her energy lower in her body she would be able to do for others what something had done for me in my moment of need. Then holy shit, it hit me…
What flashed in my awareness didn’t make any sense. This young woman/angel was not even born when I needed someone to help me, but the spontaneous tears in my eyes told me that I had to ask. I asked her if she was there to help me even though she was not physically born yet. I asked her, " Was that you?"
She spelled out each letter on her board and her mother read it back to me. Her mother said, "She says she has had the skill of supporting those who are being abused for eons. As her mother read out her message, I was again in full tears. Then I heard her telepathically say, “Yes, it was me and I was happy to be of support to you”.
My mind went silent in that moment. I was in absolute awe.
Here I was multidimensionally supporting her to come more fully into her body so she could support others who are being abused and there is no way that I would be supporting her in this way, in this moment, unless her soul had supported me when the younger version of me needed it. Without her supporting me I may have never had the confidence to allow myself to embody all the skills that would allow me to support
her.
In that moment of awareness, that golden thread that looped us together beyond time and space pulled tight and collapsed into no separation. Those that were abused and may be in the future, were and are destined to be supported always and will be in all ways.
I honestly LOVE my job!