On Wednesday evening, I hosted an online webinar for parents - specifically for parents who were feeling frustrated with their children and needing guidance and direction.
As soon as I shared about it, there was interest. I received feedback like, "OMG did you create this for me? This is exactly what I need!" The need was there. The interest was there. It was inspired action. This webinar came to me in my dreams and followed me around in my mind until I created it.
Wednesday arrived and I prepped like I had never prepped before. I was off technology for 30 minutes prior, meditating. I wanted to make sure I was a clear channel in order to provide the message that was ready to come through me that night. The amount of channeled information and experience I have on this topic is endless. I could literally teach for hours (not to mention all the experience I have with all of my clients I've personally
worked with who are moms).
I started the meeting and instantly had a sinking feeling. No one is going to show up. It wasn't one of those limiting beliefs or fears that I "created". It was just a solid knowing. No one was going to show up. In that moment, I knew it.
I sat there for 5 minutes, remaining calm, trying to "be positive", while deep down knowing no one was going to appear on the screen. I started to wonder what to do. 5 minutes turned into 25 minutes.
Do I teach anyway? How long do I wait? What if someone shows up 15 minutes in and I'm just sitting here? What will others think that no one showed up? Did I misinterpret my intuitive hit?
Then it immediately spiraled into negative self talk.
You're such a dumbass. I can't believe you thought people actually wanted to learn from you. No one values you or what you have to teach. Who are you to think you can do this? OMG remember when you actually tried to be a business coach? You're a failure and a fraud. Way to lead people down the wrong path. You're wishy-washy and never stick to anything.
I was on the verge of tears from all the awful things Ego/Natalie tried to get me to believe was true. I sat there and just loved her. Every time she told me a negative thought, I met her with love.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I know you're confused. I love you anyway.
I love you.
I love you.
I immediately shifted into knowing it was a lesson. "What part of me didn't want to teach this tonight?" I thought back to a lunch I had the other day with my second cousin who is also highly intuitive (and also an entrepreneur). He reminded me, "Any time I have received an intuitive hit, it never produced the outcome I thought it would produce. It guided me to a lesson that helped me learn something I needed to learn along the
journey. It helped me grow."
That's exactly what this was. It was helping me gain clarity on what I actually want. Live your life and write about it is what excites me, but how does that translate to those I help and how I serve them?
Many of us are multi-passionate with multiple talents, but if we really get down to it, there's one main thing we actually want to do.
I live a heart-centered, soul-aligned life and that's exactly what I teach others to do.
I can help everyone. Literally everyone needs what I have to offer.
Self-love.
Self-care.
Healing inner child wounds.
Connecting to your authentic self.
Learning to trust and follow your intuition.
All those tools are necessary for learning how to live a heart-centered, soul-aligned life.
But when I reflected on why others don't show up or haven't hired me yet, I came to my next realization:
You have options.
As long as you believe you have options, you will always take the comfortable path.
The soul doesn't have options. The ego does.
The soul has one path. One calling. One mission. One burning desire.
The ego weighs pros and cons, compares and contrasts, keeps the secure job, stays in the "it's alright" relationship.
I finally realized my niche. I work with those who have no other option.
For my client, working with me is not an option. It is the obvious choice. It's the only choice because you are ready to finally follow your one path, one calling, one mission, and one burning desire.
Following your heart-centered, soul-aligned life requires you to deconstruct the life you currently have. I say that as lovingly as possible because I know how scary that feels. As someone who has deconstructed my life multiple times, I know the healing involved along that journey. I know how terrifying it is to leave behind everything you knew to be true.
But, if you're anything like me, your soul is no longer giving you a choice. You know if you don't take that leap of faith, things are about to get a whole hell of a lot more uncomfortable and you can't wait one more minute to start creating the life you've been visualizing for years.
You want freedom and your freedom comes through working together. You deserve to work with someone who is capable of holding massive amounts of space as you transform into the person you came here to be.
I'm here to give you permission to dream again.
Much love,
Anne
