Happy Monday!
I know it's been a couple of weeks since you've heard from me. There's a reason for that. I had the Human Design Conference in Colorado Springs to get ready for, attend, and recover from. Yes, when I go to a conference, it takes a LOT out of me in terms of my energy and my "rhythm."
And with my Conscious Sun in the Gate 5, Rhythm is important to me.
But this week something is happening that I want to share with you, and I want to preface it by telling you a few very personal things about me.
I've
been working as an online entrepreneur since late 2008 - so right at 14 years now. Even before that I had dabbled in a few online explorations - mostly eBay, but I was interested and studying other things too.
When I no
longer had a regular job, I embraced the online world, and like most, I did NOT make money right away. Eventually, I found my "niche" and things started to click along a little more, but cash flow remained a struggle. I would have wild swings of income - sometimes really great and other times dropping very low.
I also started finding myself sinking deeper and deeper in debt, which meant that even the really great times couldn't lift me out of the depths. And of course I was getting older and older, so I began to fear that I would never have dependable income and be "free" of money fears and debt.
I only knew that even though I tried to do all the right things around money: setting goals, getting clear on my why & my what, taking action, working hard, DOING things - money remained a problem area.
I also did all of the manifesting things: being grateful for what I already have, trusting that I would have enough, setting intentions, and changing the way I spoke AND thought about money.
But there was still a piece missing. Yes, I did always have "enough." There were times when I was absolutely sure I wasn't going to be able to make it to the next income period, but something always kept me from filing bankruptcy or losing a house or a car.
So in the long run, my story wasn't as dire as many, but it was HARD. And a lot of great opportunities were missed because I simply did not have funds to invest in them when they showed up for me.That further compounded the discouraging feeling that maybe I just wasn't meant to HAVE
wealth in any meaningful sense of the word.
It's a tough way to exist, and it felt shameful. Especially when my credit score began to really suffer because of it. That felt like a direct assessment of how poorly I
was doing. I was being scored on my ability to manage money - me, an accountant who always considered herself really good at numbers.
And then the unthinkable started to happen. My creativity started to suffer from the
stress and the worry. I was losing touch with the essence of who I really am and it sucked.
Life was dark at times. I won't say that I was in a depression, because I really don't ever go that far, but I was not
well. I think that was a big part of the health issues I had between 2010-2018 or so. There was burnout and stress, and my normal healthy and optimistic nature took a hard hit.
This creativity coach needed help getting
back in touch with my own creativity! And then along came Karen Curry Parker and her team of Cosmic Revolutionaries. I get chills thinking about how my life has changed in such a short period of time.
I am creating
with ease, I don't worry so much, money is starting to flow to me seemingly without any effort on my part.
And yet I KNOW that it's only the tip of the iceberg. I've told you I have a great big vision, and that is
true. It means me stepping up to a level I once only dreamed of, and had started to believe it was too late for. It's about me answering my calling to serve in my most aligned way.
Which is why I signed up for yet
another (FREE) training from Karen. Yes, even though I'm now a member of The Team, I still plant my butt in the seat and listen when she offers new wisdom.
Because the truth is that ALL of us
carry an "injury" as a result of measuring our value by money. Symptoms of the money wound show up even in the most successful people, because they are also valuing themselves based on how much money they make.
Some of
the symptoms of the Money Wound are:
- Guilt
- Shame
- Fear
- Shutting down your power
- Denying your desires
- Feeling cut off or disconnected from your true identity
- Not valuing
yourself
- Not setting good boundaries
- Over-pleasing
- Hiding out
- Limiting yourself
- Stifling your creativity
- Worry
- Struggling with money and money fears - even if you’re
“rich”!
Whether you were raised to embrace your “value” because you had money (or your family had money) - or you grew up struggling for money, we have all been shaped by our experiences WITH money.
To step into the full power of our innate creativity, we MUST heal the Money Wound and learn to feel valuable simply because we exist.
I AM valuable, simply because I exist.
YOU are valuable simply because you exist.
This free training happens on Wednesday from 11:30 AM - 1:00 PM CENTRAL TIME.
I'll be there. Hope you'll join me!